miracle rambling

i have been pondering lately, about miracles, and where God is, and where i want to be.

I met a man a few nights ago, who is the leader of a house church network, (and just happens to be able to see angels, and has been to heaven, and has talked with jesus face to face various times- not that that really matters in my story, but it was kind of facinating) Anyhow, he was at a meeting once and jesus walked up to him and said "you see all these people run here and there in search a signs, and miracles, yet they fail to see the miracle in a life that is transformed" Well that was the beginning of his path towards the house church thing.

I have been thinking of my neighbor from when i was young, who just died. He was a simple man, who rarely left his farm, his ENTIRE life. he died at 93. You can see the log cabin, where he was born, from his grave. Today it serves as someones shed, yet once it held a family,and sheltered them from the fierce minnesota winters.

I am thinking of children we are about to open our hime to. Children from who knows where, in need of a safe place. and of the children in the world, that go with out food, and are sold into slavery, and aren't valued.

There are people with whom the world would like to ignore, would like to get rid of, would like to die. People who are incovienient, or bother us, make us feel uncomfortable. People who require too much, people in need.
Maybe it is a person who is "handicapped" in some way, but independant. Maybe they are not in need, but we need them- in reality.

I think i would much rather be spending my entire life, seeking out the "nobodies, unwanted, and untouchables" , than spend one moment of my time with the "rich and famous- so- and so's."

I think mother theresa said once "it is poverty, that someone would have to die, so that we can live how we please"

I think that God is with the "nobodies", and that is where i want to be.

I have always had this weird feeling, (i always interpret it as arrogance) that if i was my true self, all my potential, i'd be famous. -And that always freaked me out, because, yikes, what would happen to me? i don't know if i could handle that. (maybe i should get counseling . he he.)

Well, really. I don't give a rip about being famous. I'd much rather not be. I enjoy, sweet moments with the Lord, when no one is watching. And pouring my life out, within the walls of my home.
And sweet moments with my children.
Laying down YOUR life, so that others might live.
That is miraculous.
That is touching God.