another day gone bye, never to be retrieved again. what did i plant today, that i will harvest later? hope something good. so often at the end of the day i feel like, "what the heck just happened?" like a whole day just whizzed bye, and all i remember is messes, diapers, being frustrated, and hoping kids would take a nap and give me a little rest. honestly. Like i just spent a day uselessly trying to hide from my kids and living on the edge of meltdown. so often i feel like a failure.
But then i have to remind myself of the good points. like today when i drug myself out on a bike ride with the kids, and while serenity sat in the chair behind me and said "you have a skirt on and i have a dress on" connecting the two in her mind , and then hugging me from the back while we were riding and saying " i LOVE you momma" at least two times.
and i did get to read to winter today (which is what she loves and always asks for). and she did spend hours this morning enveloped in the BIBLE on tape, while she painted, colored, and sculpted.
and i did get to kiss isaac ALOT today and he laughed quite a bit.
oh and the girls did the dishes, together! hoorah!

ok life is not so bad, and my kids are wonderful. sometimes a woman just needs a break, be it ever so small, to get her mind refreshed. maybe i'll try that tomorrow.